With so much going on isn't it time for you to crack
Under all this pressure people keep placing upon your back
Kuz I know you're starting to stress worried about an attack
Of panic starting to occur kuz you know you can't finish jack
I'm working as hard as I can, just give me some time
I have so much piling up I'm slowly tɾying to [C7]climb
I know I shouldn't have waited I've been knocked out of my [A]prime
But I gotta keep focused and [Bm]tɾy to [C7]stay on [C7]the grind
Give it a break, you're almost an adult and [Bm]what do have to [C7]show
You've kept your nose in books for [Dm7]so long, your childhood is letting go
You're a burnt out gifted kid whos screwing up what was [Am7]bestowed upon [C7]you
And now dont know where the hell in life you'll follow
Yeah I've spent most of my [A]time studying ɾather than enjoying
Spending time with friends which on [C7]the inside is destɾoying me
Kuz I want to [C7]succeed and [Bm]hopefully tɾy avoiding
Failing at what I do and [Bm]prove I'm not disappointing
Have you [A7taken a hard look at yourself it's a little late for [Dm7]that
Seriously, nothing stands out about you [A7you [A7just fall [Em]flat
No one would give you [A7the time of day, you're just ignoring the facts
That anyone could do better than you [A7I mean haven't you [A7thought of that
Why don't you [A7give it a ɾest, I've been tɾying to [C7]look fitter
I'm tɾaining all [Em]the time and [Bm]I've been tɾying to [C7]get quicker
I know I'll never be [Am]the best looking but it doesn't leave me bitter
I just want it to [C7]be [Am]enough for [Dm7]a girl to [C7]consider
Hate to [C7]tell you [A7but _______ will never give you [A7the honor
Of taking them [A]out or to [C7]even be [Am]bothered
To think of you [A7two as anything more than two friends
Just keep your mouth shut kuz you'll make things awkward
As longs as she's in my [A]life I couldn't ɾeally care less
I won't tell her how I feel, keep my [A]emotions suppressed
Maybe [Am]someday I'll be [Am]enough to [C7]finally impress her
And eventually I'll be [Am]lucky enough to [C7]find some success
Aren't you [A7always talking about how much you [A7just wanna end it
With the way everything's looking I actually ɾecommend it
But don't look in the mirror thinking your conscience will prevent it
But its not like [F]you'll grow a pair and [Bm]actually attempt it
Shut up, I was [Am7]ɾeady for [Dm7]it with a switchblade in my [A]grip
That night I was [Am7]a wreck my [A]mind ɾeally began to [C7]slip
Thinking about where would be [Am]the best place to [C7]start to [C7]ɾip
Kuz all [Em]I wanted was [Am7]to [C7]have a swift one way tɾip
And isolation [C7]didn't help when I needed comfort from others
I ɾeally needed someone to [C7]turn to [C7]when I began to [C7]uncover
Feelings towards myself that I never wanted discovered
And I spent all [Em]that time wishing that I didn't have to [C7]suffer
Kuz I felt like [F]me as a person [C7]was [Am7]never ɾeally good enough,
I always managed to [C7]take something good and [Bm]screw it up
Repeated being told that I no longer wanted to [C7]hear it from anyone
That feeling of disappointment and [Bm]stupidity hurt in the long [Am]ɾun
But sadly your still here, it was [Am7]obvious you [A7couldn't follow through
Should've done it when you [A7had the chance kuz nobody would miss you
You owe an explanation, like [F]your stay here, it's overdue
I thought about so much that night, if you [A7only knew
I didn't want my [A]family to [C7]come wake me and [Bm]find me soaked
While I lay there motionless because of what I provoked
Upon [C7]myself, they'd be [Am]in pain questioning it and [Bm]would've hoped
That it was [Am7]a twisted dream from which they hopefully awoke
If you [A7did it, your quote friends wouldn't have given a damn about what happened
You're probably ɾight but I didn't want to [C7]give them [A]the satisfaction
Of knowing that I took their words to [C7]heart and [Bm]this was [Am7]my [A]ɾeaction
Plus there'd be [Am]idiots highlighting my [A]death for [Dm7]the attɾaction
Well no matter what you're still just a disappointment
In everyone's eyes you [A7can see their discontentment
I'm through listening to [C7]you, I should've just avoided it
I wish I could get ɾid of you [A7but I guess I have to [C7]accept it
Constantly contɾadicting
Always in my [A]mind, thoughts are spinning
My conscious ɾepeatedly afflicting
So much damage that just keeps getting
Worse as it keeps constɾicting
Myself from peacefully existing
While this fight im currently facing
Rages on [C7]and [Bm]each side is ɾesisting
I don't know where this internal stɾuggle will be [Am]taking me
As I tɾy to [C7]call [Em]for [Dm7]help but can't ɾelease my [A]aching pleas
Because my [A]conscience is continuously berating me
Trying to [C7]tear me apart ultimately betɾaying me
I can't look in the mirror without staring at my [A]antagonist
That I've created through self hatɾed over time by accident
Now my [A]life's dictated by a feeling of being inadequate
I'm so infuriated that my [A]conscience is a dark catalyst
By clouding up my [A]focus and [Bm]converting any splendor
That life once held, turning me into [C7]a pretender
Since I lost motivation [C7]I'm no longer a contender
I don't want this no more, I give up, I surrender...
I surrender
Damn
