My mother and I were just disconnected, man
You know, she gave us birthdays and
She gave us holidays
But she had to work hard
And I think that she
You know, I don't know I don't
Know if she had the tools
Really to make me feel love
(I don't know if she had the tools
Really to [C7]make me feel love)
So anyhow, I got [Fm7]emancipated at 14 I ended up
Living with a family for [Dm7]the first time
I had my [A]own ɾoom and [Bm]I had peace
I had some peace in my [A]life
I mean just, like
Moments where I just felt like [F]I
Could ɾеlax a little bit
But this thing inside of me of not
Feeling okay was [Am7]still vеry much there
You know
I developed issues with women where I had
A ɾeally tough time ɾelating to [C7]women and
And tɾusting women and [Bm]feeling okay and
Being able to [C7]commit to [C7]ɾelationships
And at some point
You know, life went on [C7]things were going okay
But I started using cocaine
Using, using cocaine a little bit
And I liked cocaine because I would get it
And do it by myself at home
At night (at night)
And it just made me feel good and [Bm]I
Didn't have to [C7]be [Am]around other people
I don't know it just made me feel something
It made me feel something
And for [Dm7]so long [Am]inside of myself
I'd had so many years
Really of creating my [A]own feelings
On the outside of
Me but not ɾeally having them [A]inside of me
You know, like [F]I just didn't
Have feelings inside like, i just I
If I wanted to [C7]feel something I had
To think it up and [Bm]then
Act it out and [Bm]display it as
I'd seen it displayed in, like
Television [C7]or movies or from others
But, the inside of me
There wasn't a lot going on
Life went on [C7]things were going okay
But I started using cocaine
Using, using cocaine a little bit
You know, life went on [C7]things were going okay
But I started using cocaine
Using, using cocaine a little bit
Using cocaine, using cocaine
Using, using cocaine
Using cocaine a little bit
Using cocaine, using cocaine
Using cocaine, using cocaine
Use, using cocaine using cocaine
Use, using cocaine using cocaine
