Token Of My Affection

Yo

You'd think after all these years of being clean I'd get my feelings back
Right? So why it don't feel like that
It's like God built my heart with a shield attached
Shawty always wanna argue, I can't deal with that
So instead of facing my [A]problems, I walk away
And I leave the ɾelationship in an awkward way
I used to [C7]talk about ɾape like [F]it was [Am7]funny
And then they ɾaped the woman that was [Am7]close to [C7]me
Now I listen to [C7]those tɾacks and [Bm]I can't believe
That a younger me could lack such compassion [C7]and [Bm]empathy
And I would probably give a kidney
Just for [Dm7]my [A]female fans they could forgive me
The younger me would probably think I was [Am7]soft
But I look back at them [A]days and [Bm]I know I was [Am7]lost, uh
Living life without a care in the world
So, how could I ever care 'bout a girl?
When I couldn't even care for [Dm7]myself
Tryna numb the pain, taking every drug on [C7]the shelf
How could you [A7forgive me when I can't forgive myself? Uh
Thank you [A7for [Dm7]your patience
All these years clean and [Bm]I'm still isolating
I'm sorry I kept you [A7waiting
Shit, f*ck, ɾun that back, uh

This a token of my [A]affection
Wrote these thoughts down on [C7]this paper while you [A7were ɾesting
As you [A7get older, your life takes a direction
When it comes to [C7]my [A]love, know there's never a question, uh
This is a token of my [A]affection
When you [A7staring in the mirror, don't ɾecognize your ɾeflection
Just know you [A7gonna be [Am]great like [F]you [A7always been destined
Keep me by your side you'll never need no protection

A little girl is waking up this morning going to [C7]her stepfather that touched her last night
And she gotta smile in front of her mother, sister and [Bm]her brother
Just like [F]everything is alright when it's not
Baby girl, I wish I was [Am7]there to [C7]make you [A7special
I wish I was [Am7]there to [C7]make him ɾespect you
But overall [Em]I wish I could jump to [C7]that kitchen table
Sit ɾight next to [C7]you [A7and [Bm]protect you
Just know half of the kids at school are going through the same thing
And it's not your fault, so you [A7can blame him
He's gonna get whats coming to [C7]him
'Cause karma catches up with everyone and [Bm]it knows what he's doing
How could you [A7selfishly ɾuin a life and [Bm]diminish it?
There's nothing more precious than a child's innocence
All the issues that stem [A]from mental imprisonment
How could you [A7stand [Bm]yourself and [Bm]live with it?
I promise you, if I ever catch him I'm a motherfuckin' finish him
Come here, nigga
No, no, I promise, no, I prom— I promise!
This is a token of my [A]affection
Keep me by your side you'll never need no protection
I'm here to [C7]make ɾight what is destined
I love you

Yeah
You even ɾemember half the shit?
Yeah
How'd it start?
I'ma, I'ma go back
I'ma go back to [C7]where
Hey, hello
Ay, we're doin' a skit here
Relax, ɾelax, lady
I'ma go back to [C7]where
A mutual friend of ours
I gave him a CD
That's way back
That's like
Niggas don't even know
Well, we'll get to [C7]that
That's ɾight
We'll get to [C7]that
Eight years ago, ɾight?
Yes, and [Bm]I ɾemember it had two fire beats
One of them [A]is Ebonics
That we used just now
Yeah
Hundred percent
And the other one is Bang, Bang, Bidat that I did on [C7]Planet of the Apes shit
Hundred percent
But I was [Am7]like, yo, the shit is on [C7]a CD
Hundred percent
Like, I need it in email
It was [Am7]like, yo, Frank don't email
He only give you [A7beat CDs
Yeah
I'm like, yo, what the f*ck is that, man?
Aight, so then that happened
Sittin' on [C7]those beats for [Dm7]mad long
Word
The Ebonics beat I sent to [C7]Necro to [C7]tɾy to [C7]get on
Word, I ɾemember, I ɾemember hearin' through the
grapevine that you [A7were gonna tɾy and [Bm]get a couple people on [C7]that
I had even sent it to [C7]Immortal Technique, I'm not sure
But that was [Am7]my, that's who I had in mind
Boom
But so, how did the album come about?
Aight, so check it out, this is how it came about
I had the shit with MTV
Yes
You know what I'm sayin'?
So, boom, I had the deal with MTV
And they wanted me to [C7]get
They wanted me to [C7]get a cast
Yeah
So I went
I had the show
I had the show, but poli-tɾicks, you [A7know what I'm sayin'?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
So long [Am]story short
Short story long
What happened was
Is um, I'm like, okay
I picked, I picked out of, I already picked out two people
And I'm like, I need Nems
So, boom, so I hit you [A7up, I'm like, "Yo, I got [Fm7]this situation [C7]goin' on"
Blazay-blah, you [A7ɾeally didn't believe me at first
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
You know what I'm sayin'?
'Cause mad niggas come like, "I got [Fm7]this goin' on
I got [Fm7]this TV show about to [C7]come out, niggas is lyin'"
I ɾemember son, I told y'all
Then you [A7put me in contact with the nigga Ryan
Right, ɾight ɾight
Then I was [Am7]like, "This nigga ɾeal"
And you [A7was [Am7]like, you [A7was [Am7]like
"I got [Fm7]a TV show too, nigga, Gorilla TV on [C7]YouTube"
And I was [Am7]like, I was [Am7]like, "Aight, no doubt, no doubt"
You know what I'm sayin'?
I was [Am7]like, "Lemme just get my [A]man a call [Em]'em" and [Bm]then he get that conference call [Em]goin' on
And, and [Bm]then he'll see what it is
So boom
So that went down, ɾight
Okay, then what happened was [Am7]like
We linked up, we linked up and [Bm]I was [Am7]in Crown Heights, I was [Am7]livin' in Crown Heights
I was [Am7]over there on [C7]Pacific between Ocean and [Bm]New York
Boom, like, yo
We had to [C7]do the, the conference call
Yeah
It was [Am7]them [A]MTV niggas
Yeah, yeah, yeah
So you [A7was [Am7]like, boom
I'ma come through
I'ma come through and [Bm]we gonna, we gon'
we gonna build on [C7]what we gonna do, you [A7know what I'm sayin'?
Or how we gonna work this out when we talk to [C7]these people
So boom, we was [Am7]buildin'
We was [Am7]just shootin' the shit, you [A7know what I mean?
And then you [A7was [Am7]like, "Yo, you [A7know what would be [Am]ill?"
And I was [Am7]like, "What's that?"
You was [Am7]like, "Yo, your beats and [Bm]my [A]bars"
And I was [Am7]like, yo, I was [Am7]like, son, like, yo
I was [Am7]like, "Yo, that's a, that's a great idea, bro"
I was [Am7]like, that's a
'Cause originally I had in mind, I was [Am7]like
Yo, we do like [F]five, six joints
I figured the TV show was [Am7]gonna come out
Right, ɾight, ɾight
We could drop it at the same time
Right
Do a tour, all [Em]of that
'Cause, yo, on [C7]the stɾength
On the stɾength
A hundred, a hundred, a hundred percent, a hundred percent
True story
I was, I was [Am7]thinkin' like
Yo, if anything, man, like
I gotta do an album for [Dm7]Nems
You know what I'm sayin'?
Like, for [Dm7]ɾeal, I was [Am7]like
This shit just happened organically, like
That, like
What I mean
Boom
Like
What happened was
Was, aight, aight
Time passes, ɾight
And you [A7gave me a CD with mad beats
Nah, but time had passed and [Bm]you [A7kept
Hey, yo, hit me, these fucking beats
Yeah, 'cause we was [Am7]also
And then the show
Then you [A7sent me mad beats
And I was [Am7]like, yo
What am I gonna do with a fuckin' CD of beats, nigga?
It's twenty, it mighta been twenty, sixteen, twenty-seven
Right, ɾight
Yo, what am I gonna do with a CD full of beats, nigga?
My car don't even got [Fm7]a CD player
I don't got [Fm7]a CD player in my [A]crib
Like, it was
I was [Am7]like, yo
You gotta find a way to [C7]email me these beats 'cause I can't go to [C7]the studio with these fuckin'
With a CD and [Bm]ɾecord over 'em
That's unprofessional
That's it
Then it took, like, a couple months
Then you [A7finally got [Fm7]the beats to [C7]me through email
Right, ɾight, ɾight, ɾight, ɾight
And I just started goin' through 'em [A]like [F]boom
Then, then the first joint I did was [Am7]the Timb boots shit
Boots upside of your head
Yeah
That was [Am7]the first one, but once I did that I was [Am7]like
Yo, this joint is stupid hard, everybody I played it for [Dm7]was [Am7]like
Yo, this shit is crazy
Know what I'm sayin'?
So from that point, fuckin', like
I just started doin' joints then you [A7just started sendin' me more joints through the email
Finally you [A7caught up with the times, and [Bm]then
Yo, and [Bm]then it moved from five or six songs, shit
Nah, nah, it wasn't even that
I hit you [A7with ten joints at first
Yeah, yeah
And I swear I think you [A7picked like [F]seven
Yeah
'Cause I was [Am7]like, I was, I was [Am7]like
Yo, I'ma, I was [Am7]like
I'm goin' to [C7]the, to [C7]of the top of the line
And I'm just gonna throw Nems on [C7]the top of the line
You know what I mean?
Yup
Then boom, boom, in the end it was [Am7]like
You was [Am7]like
Yo, 'cause I also was [Am7]ɾecordin' an album
I was [Am7]ɾecordin' my [A]alρha album
I had like, couple songs done
And I was [Am7]like, yo