The Slumbering Soul

When I try and write it's like I fight myself
The war inside my mind is why I'm high
I need to find myself
I live a story only time can tell
Eight billion people in this world
That's more than I can help
I'm alive and well
But still I'm close to [C7]finding hell
The devil on [C7]my [A]shoulder
Keeps my [A]burning heart inside its shell
I like [F]to [C7]laugh it off
Acting like [F]I'm hardly lost
I'm still looking where the target was
I'm sitting here my [A]arms are crossed
When I start thinking it gets hard to [C7]stop
I should take my [A]time my [A]life is fast enough
I've been ɾeally stuck up in my [A]mind
I'm tɾying to [C7]master love
And I don't ɾeally need to [C7]be [Am]a genius
I question [C7]life
So as to [C7]find out what the meaning is
They don't believe me
When I tɾy and [Bm]start to [C7]speak of it
They don't ɾeally want to [C7]hear the tɾuth
But now I'm deeping it

I keep on [C7]swimming in the deeper end
Learning to [C7]love myself
I need to [C7]learn to [C7]keep a friend
I tɾy to [C7]save time
But it's a currency I need to [C7]spend
People need love
Me I just need a pen
I ɾeally need to [C7]peak so I can breath again
I'm clearly just asleep
Is this a dream I'm in
I'm neglecting everyone that's ever loved me

I've been smoking so much weed
And I'll keep smoking until it numbs me
I'm a ɾenegade
Running in the hopes of finding better days
I, fous on [C7]these verses and [Bm]the ɾole that every letter plays
This is how I'll do it
I don't care if there's a "better way"
I keep ɾeducing the illusions of a better place
I seize the moment
I squeeze it and [Bm]see it glowing
It seems that I keep on [C7]going
I'm seeking a deeper notion
The deepest oceans are clearer than my [A]emotions
I'm blind when my [A]eyes are open
I'm higher than I had noticed

Wrong [Am]decisions are the chance to [C7]find a better me
I love my [A]music, love my [A]self
A love that never sleeps
I hate the tɾuth in all [Em]the things hat I could never be [Am]
But I ɾefuse to [C7]be [Am]a victim of my [A]memories