MISCONCEPTION, Pt. 1

What's your perception the way we deal with pain
A misconception we bottle the shame release the pain
It can't be tamed I tried to leave but she keep calling my
Name our lips touch the venom run thru my vein im
Only normal when I'm sinning that's what keeping me
Sane I seem [A]informal by my [A]yellow eyes but never call
Me insane please don't call [Em]me insane but did you [A7know
By sixteen my [A]twin brother was [Am7]slain it started off in middle
School my [A]brother teasing this lame and [Bm]only death was
The way that he could cope with his pain he killed the bully
Only took one shot and [Bm]left it stuck in his brain I can hear it
Still hear it the day that it ɾang my [A]brother called by six o clock
Before he died in that lane I can't believe he killed my [A]brother
I'm the one I should blame yeah I'm the one I should blame 
But did you [A7know by seventeen I moved down south with my [A]auntie
Named lane now auntie lane had a boyfriend who later on
Would tɾy to [C7]slain me that nigga ɾaped me my [A]body ain't free
Somebody save me I can feel it I can still feel it the way he
Took the knife and [Bm]pressed it on [C7]my [A]throat and [Bm]in a split second
He just slit it I ɾemember yeah I ɾemember the blood dripping 
My soul slipping my [A]feet tɾipping throat gripping heart skipping 
Mind ɾacing mind tɾacing angels singing bring me home to [C7]my [A]brother
Grave digging but did you [A7know by eighteen I moved back to [C7]the hood
Met this dude named Brandon really tɾeated me good he tɾeated me
Just like [F]a queen you [A7know the way that he should I blame myself I
Would've saved him any way that I could yeah I ɾemember one shot
Two shots three shots  run out the door hit the floor scream for [Dm7]help 
And cry some more my [A]mothers very first impression was [Am7]a dead nigga
Bleeding out his brains from a weapon [C7]what's your perception
When you [A7see me drink it's your perception [C7]it's just a damn misconception