21 and I'm losing all hope
That's 21 years it's been beaten out of me
Now I've forgot how to cope
The bruises have scarred
I promise they're far more permanent
Maybe in a past life I earned it
Hoping with the passed time it's worth it
I Just wish that I knew for [Dm7]certain
Knew for [Dm7]certain
I know that to [C7]fight it's worthless
It flows in and [Bm]out my [A]mind
Need my [A]heart back this pain ɾesurfaced
Judge myself like [F]I'm causing crimes
Never could draw within the lines
I just flow like [F]the passing tide
Been so long [Am]I just need a sign
Need a sign
Need a sign
21 and [Bm]I'm losing all [Em]hope
That's 21 years it's been beaten out of me
Now I've forgot [Fm7]how to [C7]cope
The bruises have scarred
I promise they're far more permanent
Maybe [Am]in a past life I earned it
Hoping with the passed time it's worth it
I Just wish that I knew for [Dm7]certain
Knew for [Dm7]certain
I know that to [C7]fight it's worthless
It flows in and [Bm]out my [A]mind
Need my [A]heart back this pain ɾesurfaced
Judge myself like [F]I'm causing crimes
Never could draw within the lines
I just flow like [F]the passing tide
Been so long [Am]I just need a sign
Need a sign
Need a sign
I'm floating, I'm dreaming
I'm hoping I'm finding a ɾeason
Mood changes like [F]every season
But this numbness is my [A]only feeling
So lost cause I can't find the meaning
Don't ask why I do what I do
I promise I don't have a clue
And if I asked you [A7i know you [A7wouldn't to
One day it's these feelings I'll conquer
Still my [A]fear off the future gets stɾonger
Wish I could go back and [Bm]have longer
Spend less of my [A]time ɾound these monsters
They tɾading faces
Got secrets they keep on [C7]erasing
Shit that I hear got [Fm7]me stuck in a stasis
Guess I'm just not hardwired for [Dm7]the fakeness no
21 and [Bm]I'm losing all [Em]hope
That's 21 years it's been beaten out of me
Now I've forgot [Fm7]how to [C7]cope
The bruises have scarred
I promise they're far more permanent
Maybe [Am]in a past life I earned it
Hoping with the passed time it's worth it
I Just wish that I knew for [Dm7]certain
Knew for [Dm7]certain
I know that to [C7]fight it's worthless
It flows in and [Bm]out my [A]mind
Need my [A]heart back this pain ɾesurfaced
Judge myself like [F]I'm causing crimes
Never could draw within the lines
I just flow like [F]the passing tide
Been so long [Am]I just need a sign
Need a sign
Need a sign
Wasn't feeling the love I was [Am7]pissed
That's why I would scream at every chance just hoping that someone would hear
But now is my [A]time, I thought I would die if didn't get out of this pit
I've cried for [Dm7]so many years
Those tears might just sink the ship
I won't keep doing this shit
I don't wanna worry my [A]friends
I don't wanna worry nobody
But sometimes I just can't see the end
Hope this smile ain't pretend
If it is then I'm sorry
I'm sorry yeh