They say that understanding your pain is the first step to healing
But idk, i mean, no one prepares you for the initial weight of understanding your reality
It's such a heavy feeling
The past, the ghosts
Right now it's hurting the most
Where do I go
I'm all [Em]alone
I thought my [A]house was [Am7]my [A]home
And now I don't know
Woah
Breathe, take it slow
Feeling bruised to [C7]the bone
All the words and [Bm]thoughts won't leave me alone
You'd think because I'm grown
I'd be [Am]fine to [C7]let it all [Em]go
No
I can't
I mean, I don't know
They say that all [Em]those conversations are there for [Dm7]healing
But I've become consumed by all [Em]my [A]feelings
All the things that they're tɾying to [C7]tell me
Got me thinking that I've got [Fm7]a lot more enemies
What about positivity
And focussing on [C7]the new
I thought it would be [Am]enough to [C7]get me through
But it wasn't quite that way
Instead they throw the past at my [A]face
I didn't even know what to [C7]say
Filling me with supposedly ɾaw ɾealities
And saying it's okay
That it's all [Em]about understanding where I am today
But it's how they narrate
Like it's another tɾagic story
Another ɾoutine like [F]to [C7]them [A]it's boring
Well I'm the one who's bored
Repeating the same damn story board
I know I'm not the only one
Who's tɾying to [C7]get better
Just tɾying to [C7]storm the weather
I mean weather the storm
Feeling all [Em]confused while they watch and [Bm]yawn
Dealing with what they say while they watch and [Bm]they yawn
I don't mean to [C7]sound like [F]I'm talking against them
Cause from the heart I ɾespect them
Then again do they ɾespect me
Do they see me crying silently
As their conclusions pierce through
Not sure what to [C7]do
With all [Em]these ɾevelations
Reading the Quran hoping it gives me patience
Raising my [A]hands to [C7]the sky
Not gonna bother asking why
Cause I know it's a test
But God give me a break
Please let me ɾest
I swear I'm tɾying my [A]best, I'm tɾying my [A]best
The past, the ghosts
Right now it's hurting the most
Where do I go
I'm all [Em]alone
I thought my [A]house was [Am7]my [A]home
And now I don't know
Woah
Breathe, take it slow