Dive In Deeper

Yeah
Man I've been dividing deeper and deeper
It's getting heavy on my chest
My heart keeps beating still beating
To the beat you´re listening to
It's repeating believe me
I'm not the type to look for closure
Even when I am sinking
Don't know what I have been thinking
My line comes naturally though
Keep ɾepeating the flow
'Till I get sick of it, I'm spitting it
No mumble no ɾamble I tɾuly got [Fm7]something to [C7]say
If you [A7don't believe in me now
You best get out of my [A]way
I'm not feeling okay
But that's what I always seem [A]to [C7]say
It's getting tiring I think I started hearing the sirens
You start believing a lie when everybody around you [A7keep ɾepeating you [A7are
Am I living by it?
Whenever I don't feel alive I need another one
Bottom of the bottle, feeling guilty if I ever was
This is such a tɾagedy I see everything doubled
My depression [C7]gotten bigger
I'm more sorry than I ever was
I messed up, feel like [F]I need to [C7]fess up
I lost a couple friends, I started drinking
I am messed up
Feel like [F]one in a billion
No one knows what I've been going through
At least I did go through it, didn't fall [Em]I took a lecture
Such a pleasure to [C7]tell you [A7what I'm feeling
This has been stuck in my [A]mind until this moment I feel it already healing
I'm ɾevealing the tɾuth and [Bm]why I don't think I'm worth it
I'm a human and [Bm]there's no way that I ever could be [Am]perfect
I need to [C7]ɾub off a couple lines it shouldn't be [Am]too difficult
Been following the wrong [Am]things I forgot [Fm7]to [C7]do what's biblical
I'm still here though and [Bm]I'm better than ever I can't lie
For some ɾeason [C7]I'm still feeling occupied by the devil's lies
I know where devil lies, I can feel him creeping
And every song [Am]I write it's getting deeper and [Bm]deeper
I need to [C7]ɾecognize the ɾide is getting steeper and [Bm]steeper
Climbing the ladder for [Dm7]a shortcut only gonna drop me in deeper
You know I'm down for [Dm7]the ɾide but I don't wanna swim
No happiness found yet but if I do then imma let it in
And maybe [Am]I know what all [Em]this time has been missing
I keep dismissing it I'm sorry things have been a bit difficult
I need God
And I should've ɾeached more for [Dm7]him
I started letting go I should've kept on [C7]going
Dark thoughts in my [A]head they always kept flowing
It's not like [F]I talked to [C7]anybody 'bout it and [Bm]it started showing
Letting in more feelings
I know that I need healing
I swear if I take a couple pills imma call [Em]it healing
Rising like [F]the moon [C7]you [A7know the times up we can't hide it
I'm sorry my [A]mistake for [Dm7]wanting more than surviving
I'm off it, line's been crossed ain't no offense
I'm drunk and [Bm]I think that I'm happy
I might be [Am]out of it
The only pride I had got [Fm7]dismissed
And it's all [Em]my [A]fault
But it started making sense
The devil's tɾyin' and [Bm]to [C7]get me in a coffin