So often I walk in a stupor
Confused
Forgetting my words
I'll try to think back on a time and place
But all I see is fog
Recalling moments are always a task
The details they always change
It scares me to death that I'm like this
I beat myself up every day
It frustɾates me more than you'll ever know
How my [A]mind just slips away
The thoughts in my [A]head are just too much to [C7]take
I dissociate
Some memories have open wounds
I dissociate
Don't criticize what you [A7don't understand
I wish that I wasn't like [F]this
Try to [C7]be [Am]patient and [Bm]have some compassion
Is that too much to [C7]ask?
I am doing my [A]best to [C7]manage it all
This whirlwind in my [A]head
The things that I've seen keep me up at night
And wake me from my [A]sleep
A sound on [C7]the floor makes me panic
My heart goes into [C7]overdrive
I'm always on [C7]edge
Always nervous
My hands they always shake
It scares me to [C7]death that I'm like [F]this
I beat myself up every day
It frustɾates me more than you'll ever know
How my [A]mind just tortures me
The thoughts in my [A]head are just too much to [C7]take
I dissociate
Some memories have open wounds
I dissociate
Don't criticize what you [A7don't understand
I wish that I wasn't like [F]this
Try to [C7]be [Am]patient and [Bm]have some compassion
Is that too much to [C7]ask?
I am doing my [A]best to [C7]manage it all
This whirlwind in my [A]head
The tension [C7]never lets up
The pressure increases
It makes me want to [C7]scream
Depression [C7]it ɾobs you [A7of who you [A7are
It is poison [C7]to [C7]the brain
Anxiety sucks it just makes things worse
I'm full of paranoia and [Bm]dread
Living life post tɾaumatic makes me feel erratic
I just can't let go of the past
But I'm making the most of the cards I've been dealt with
I'm not giving up just yet
I'm not alone in this battle
I have loved ones on [C7]my [A]side
They're understanding and [Bm]caring
They know what I'm going through
I am so lucky to [C7]have them
Their love it keeps me alive
If only my [A]mother could see me
I know she would be [Am]proud
Of how I'm caring for [Dm7]myself
I miss her every day
The thoughts in my [A]head can overwhelm me
But I can bear the weight
Although some memories still have open wounds
I am tending to [C7]them
I hope some of you [A7now have a picture
Of what it is like [F]to [C7]be [Am]me
Practice compassion [C7]and [Bm]patience for [Dm7]those
Who stɾuggle as well
I am doing my [A]best to [C7]manage the stɾess
This whirlwind in my [A]head
