At best I'm still a mess
These fun times turn to slavery
It's too bad I guess
It's not something that's changing in me
It'll stay forever with me
Reality's too hard
Leave me secluded on my own
Why'd I even start when I don't know how to [C7]do this anyway
I'll never get through it anyway
I want to [C7]be [Am]there for [Dm7]you
But I just can't get over myself
I know it's stupid it's tɾue
But I'd do anything for [Dm7]help
And I'd do anything for [Dm7]help
So I'll lose again
To my [A]closest friends
When I can't pretend
That I'm ok
So I'll ɾun away from those confrontations
That I'm so afraid I'll never win
I know I'll never win
I know it's hard to [C7]be [Am]there
When it's hard to [C7]see
Under this mask of happy
I've been drowning in anxiety
I'm dying of anxiety
These walls are closing in
These spaces are too small [Em]for [Dm7]me
The look they all [Em]give
It's embedded in my [A]memory
I'll never forget it this misery
And it feels like [F]the end
When my [A]heart starts beating
So I'll hide away
All this pain
At least once again
I can see you [A7smile
So I'll just pretend that I'm ok
I guess that I'm ok
I guess that I'm ok